Farewell My Love

My dear persona, my guise as I leave the safety of my home...
You have served me well all these years protecting me from the lies and deceit of this ugly world...
Accompanying me in my times of solitude, comforting me when no one was there for me...
I have loved you more than I have loved anyone else...
But it is time for you to go, and let me love others as how I had loved you...
Allow me the chance to live life as life truly is, feel pain as it truly hurts, feel happiness as it truly brings joy, not by our own ideals and definition, but by how God has made it all possible...
For there is a need in this world, I have a duty to carry out, and I cannot grow stronger if I do not get hurt...
I cannot be so self centered anymore...
So please, return to your world, where you are free to roam...
And let me return to reality, where I truly belong...
I will be fine, don't you ever worry...
I want to experience the beauty that God has created in this world filled with the ugliness of man...

Goodbye my beloved persona...
May our paths never meet again...

Wake Up Call

You are living your life utilizing your potential the best that you can, maybe you have higher standards for yourself, but still you are doing so much more than what I am doing with my life. How could I ever be so blind? All this while, I have not been living my life to its optimum potential, I know that all too well for I am able to do so much more, but I chose to continue to live life contented with what I have, immersed in the little pleasures that my simple lifestyle could provide.

No, this is not what I am destined for. I am not just able, I am blessed with much more untapped potential within me, all hidden deep inside this physique that I have only begin to know and discover even though I have had it for my whole life.

I can honestly say I'm inspired by you, I want to live life like you do, having that perspective you hold as you view life, always keeping in check of your purpose, always questioning the significance in your actions, and knowing where you are heading.

There is no time to waste, I must make haste. I can't remain your rookie guardian forever. You made me realize that I have a dream, now I have the reason to chase after it. I hope one day as you save the lives of others, I would be able to save yours.

You said that you would choose to die if you lost your purpose, I would choose to die for the sake of my purpose. May God so help me to not only be a wanderer in search of tales, but also a wanderer in search of souls.

If I didn’t know you…

I got the shock of my life as I woke up this morning. To my horror, I was greeted by a message from Elaine Low the youth worker in CGMC. It read: “Got di-yan’s sms (3.40am). His mom had passed away. Elaine”

Di-yan, a friend of mine… a close friend of mine. Our meeting was rather unusual…

Although I have known him only over a short period of a year, we had already formed a close bond. He was almost like a brother to me. I met Di-yan through Darren Hew, Darren asked me to fetch Di-yan to church and I agreed. From then on, we got along really well, we shared the interest of watching anime and playing games, we hung out around Meru Valley often, went to church together, helped out in the Kids church together, where ever I would go during the weekends, most of the time he would follow. I had fun, really did…

One day, the doctors discovered tumor cells in his mother’s brain and lungs. It was suspected that it had spread from previous cancer developments that had been treated. She went to Kuala Lumpur (KL) to receive frequent check ups and treatment, and it had a great impact on Di-yan’s life. He was no longer as cheerful as before, he was no longer as lively as before, he became quiet and was deep in thought at times. The issue of his mother’s illness was brought up in our Morning Prayer group, and we even organized a trip to visit her and to pray for her. Of course, it was originally Di-yan’s plan, out of filial piety he wanted to show his mother that there are many people who really care for her and are praying hard for her even though they do not know her personally…

His parents were open; they were happy that we paid them a visit and even allowed us to pray for his mother. Many MYF members turned up so much that there wasn’t enough space in the dining hall to fit all of us. But it was encouraging, I was happy that I was able to do something to help out this dear friend of mine…

Then his mother went on with her treatments in Hospital University in KL on a frequent basis, about twice a week, traveling back and fourth between Ipoh and KL in between treatments. Eventually, things became more stable, and Di-yan slowly got back to his cheerful lively self again. I assumed that everything went well…

But during that time, Di-yan said that he would have to cut down on his activeness in church because he wanted to stay home to spend time with his mother. He realized that all this while he didn’t really notice how important his mother is in his life. He felt that he had been taking his mother for granted, so in return he decided to take care of her in this time where she is at her weakest. Chemotheraphy, is a treatment that is very taxing on the human body…

After awhile, things when on as usual, but we still uphold Di-yan’s mother in our regular morning prayers. Then it was time for me to leave for KL for my further studies. That is when I didn’t keep in touch with the happenings in Ipoh anymore, as I had other things and commitments. Even now, I am in the midst of still finishing up my assignments and preparing for my final papers which are coming up in the 1^st week of December. I was totally unaware of what was happening back in Ipoh, what had taken place in the Ho residence up till this fateful morning…

I was crushed emotionally. Of all things, why this? Why now? Why him?

I was at a lost mentally. I was so confused, what am I going to say? What am I to do? I can’t even go back to attend the funeral?

I’m so far away, all I could do was make a call, and I pretty much don’t know what to say at all…

It grieves me to know that I am so limited…

“I wonder what would have happen if I didn’t know you” said Di-yan, but all I did was smiled as I drove up the porch of his house letting him off to return to his house. Those were the words he said to me just shortly before I left for KL… I really do wonder, what would have happen? That I do not know, but I know for sure that this is not the end...

Di-yan, sorry I could not be there for you…

I hope that you will find comfort in Jesus Christ during this time of need, and may God’s blessing and peace be upon you and your family. Stay strong alright? don't give up.

Your brother and friend,

Rong Tau

A peek at Dream Center

Okay, it has been 4 weeks since Dream Center's official opening, and I have been very lazy to get the pictures together. I'll just rip them off Jonathan Khoo's Friendster lah. hahaha..

A view from the balcony:














A view of the stage:














The Choir:














A view from the Stage:














A view of the youth center:














The hall without the chairs:














Main hall under construction:














Well, thats all I can find from Jonathan's Friendster..and his friend's blog hehehe..
Jonathan, I hope you don't mind. Your pictures are the best I can find lar. haha..

Oh yea, I got hit by the automated sliding glass door in college today. I was chatting with my friend while we were walking out of the computer labs. When we walked passed the glass door, it suddenly closed and hit us. haha.. Real dumb =p

Anyway, thats all for today,
-Rong Tau-

Trippin wif Rapid KL

I decided to do something different today. I and Jonathan went to jalan-jalan in KL by Rapid KL Bus. haha..
My class ended early today because my lecturer was absent, so I left for Jonathan's place at about 2pm. First we went for a haircut near his house, cost us RM5 each because it was done by trainees. For the amount of money I paid, it was quite alright, so can't complain about it. haha..
After that, we went over to Court 9 I think ( can't quite remember. hehe ). I parked my car there and took a Rapid KL bus to Pasar Seni. It is very cheap, cost us RM2 per person and we can hop on to any Rapid KL bus which starts with the code U. As far as I know, the Rapid KL buses are divided into two groups, the U group and the B group and they both have their own routes.
Anyway, we first went over to Petaling Street to check things out there. There are plenty of cheap stuff being sold there, and it looks quite nice too. haha.. Then, we took another bus to Berjaya Time Square. We went in just to use the toilet because it is free. hehe.. After our toilet break, we crossed over to Sungei Wang Plaza to look around for awhile, then walked over to BB Plaza and continued on to another mall and exited into Bintang Walk. I'm leaving out lots of details. haha.. Basically, we were just walking around kinda aimlessly and looking at the sights in KL city.
Later on we went back to Petaling street and waited till 8pm to look at the Merdeka decorations they had set up around that area and all the way to Merdeka Square. It was great, the streets were beautifully lit up just for our Country's 50th year of independence. But sadly, my hand phone was out of battery and Jonathan didn't bring his camera. If not, we would have taken some really awesome pictures there. haha..
Anyway, it was a great experience traveling in KL by bus and on foot. I'm able to navigate a bit more in the city of KL now. hehe..

TOYS TOYS TOYS!!!...

Fuh, what a tiring day today. I've been out all day going all over KL. haha..
In the morning, I attended the opening service of DUMC's new building called the Dream Center. Then I somehow suddenly met up with Andrea, Rene, Jyh Shyn, Michael, Joanna, and Ting Ting. I guess they'll be my regular friends in DUMC =p
Oh, the Dream Center, totally awesome. It was jammed pack with people. When the service ends and everyone comes out, it looks just like a shopping mall filled with shoppers at a shopping sale. haha..

After service, during lunch, Jyh Shyn suddenly said he wants to buy a Transformers toy over at a shop in Bukit Bintang. I guess he and Andrea had already planned about going because Andrea was so into it as well. haha.. So I decided to go along with them, just to take a look =D

First, we went over to Andrea and gang's place to get Rene's stuff because she is going back to Melaka by bus. Over there I met Johnny, a guy from CGMC. Then we went to Pudu bus station and dropped Rene off. And then, Andrea, Jyh Shyn, Johnny and me went on our little trip to the toy shop. hehe..

Andrea and Jyh Shyn were so excited about it and were talking and talking about it on our way there. But as we reached the shop, they realized that the price has changed! It got more expensive!. haha.. So they decided to head over to Berjaya Time Square to check out a toy shop there, hoping that it would be cheaper. When they reached there, Andrea and Jyh Shyn were all over the shelf with Transformers merchandise, while I and Johnny were mesmerized with Star Wars stuff at another shelf. haha..

Andrea ended up buying Jazz, a sports car that was featured in the recent Transformers movie. Jyh Shyn was still not satisfied, so we went over to 1 Utama to continue our hunt. We went straight to Toys 'R' Us, but was disappointed when we saw that the Transformers display shelf was swept clean leaving nothing for our two poor fellows. haha.. Then we walked to the other end of 1 Utama where there was yet another toy shop. Over there, we had no luck as well. All of the Tranformers toys were sold out or already reserved. *sigh* So Jyh Shyn ended up ordering one instead. After browsing through the catalog, Jyh Shyn thought that Blackout was the most "Solid" one there, so he ordered that, and Johnny ended up buying a Darth Vader, an Airborne Trooper, and a Mace Windu action figure. haha..

In the end, I didn't get anything. But it was fun just lepaking with them. haha..
As to Jonathan, I'm sorry yo, I wanted to go for the fireworks finale but I just couldn't make it in time =/


Kay, thats all for today!.
- Rong Tau -

I am back online!

Alright, I've just got my Streamyx connection installed. So I can now actively logon the internet. Joy!!.haha..

But I'll will be updating about my current life more than writing stories now, or I would probably stop story writing all together, because it is quite time consuming. haha..
Alright, it is the third week I've been staying in the big city Kuala Lumpur, and everything is quite alright here. Even though I'm living all alone in my terrace house in USJ 3, I'm quite comfortable. It is so very peaceful, yup, it really is... okay, maybe it is a little too peaceful.haha..

The good thing is, my uncle lives quite nearby over in Taipan. And the best thing is, he opens a hardware shop! I would just go over whenever I need something in my house like light bulbs, screws, curtain hangers, detergent, water filter even a sink! haha.. He has it all =D

Okay, if some of you might be wondering, I have decided to join Damansara Utama Methodist Church (DUMC). Because I heard there is quite a number of CGMC members attend DUMC. That sounds like a really smart decision to join a church doesn't it? haha.. Not really.. I guess its God's plan to bring me to DUMC. After the 1st time I attended the service I somehow met up with a friend from my old school in Penang! His name is Jonathan Khoo, and he has been actively serving in DUMC for over a year now. So, he gave me a personal tour of the new super cool DUMC building called the Dream Center! Wow, it is really amazing. So amazing that I'll talk more about it next time =p
The thing is, Jonathan here has easily introduced me into the DEW Crew in DUMC, where I can start out my service in this church which I'm so new to. haha..

So, do you think its God's plan for me to be in DUMC?
I'll leave it you to figure that out while I sign out. haha..

- Rong Tau -